Thoughts...

I remember my days in GSS Jaji.

I was always mocked for having a small waist, and a very flat stomach that made it look as if the abdominal region of my body was empty.

Despite knowing this painful fact, I always tucked in my shirt to my pleated skirt.

 

I was often mocked. If twelve young girls were walking in a straight line, ten will take two steps back to laugh and gloat at my small waist.

To them, I was bold and indifferent; but inside, I always felt so terrible, that I would want to be buried in an earthquake.

Yes, I grew to hate my stomach, my fingers, my waist, my teeth, my face and even the shape of my head.

I always wished I could die and it would be better off.

I always prayed to die so badly, but then...I remembered!

I remembered how my dad forced us to eat Oats and Eggs so as to be healthy.

I remembered how He constantly reminded us that we had all it takes to be better.

It was just too ridiculous,

That i could not see the possibilities!

Most times, my dad would rush to work without eating, immensely happy to earn for our upkeep.

I knew my prayers were not fair to Him.

And so I tried to stop.

Still, I always looked down on myself and call myself foolish and good for nothing...

Then My Heavenly father intervened.

He said:

"Do you think I can give up being God to die for man and that man remains useless?

 You are precious, bought with my precious life!

The Grave is Empty, I am the living one in you.

You are justified and sanctified in Me."

I never understood and never believed.

But having a great desire towards the Scriptures I grew in Knowledge.

My father in me showed me Scriptures, pushed me to study more, to grow to the knowledge of whom I really am in Him, what I have in Him, and what He could do in me.

As it was in the past,

I am still reserved with my thoughts

But the thoughts in my head are now enlightened ones

They are not of ignorance.

They are of full knowledge that:

God is Justification, Sanctification, Righteousness, Wisdom and the Hope of Glory.

And He is my Father and God, He is in me.

I am perfectly accepted to be suitable.

So till He returns, or I go home,

here in the Love of Christ I stand,

and grow in His word.

Believers, let's  choose to be perfected by the word of grace and not by people's opinion, Law  or legalism.

If the law or people's opinion could save, Jesus would not have died and rose,

But they Never could.

And so He died and Rose, giving us victory by atoning for our sins eternally.

Great grace abounds!