Not Everyones Lover, but a lover of all!

My Name is eoni. (Laughs)
People find it hard to pronounce it; but it is pronounced as A-O-Ni.
I am 5" 8 chocolate Skinned 26 years old Busan Girl.
   I am one you can call a Crushee. I Crush a lot on guys, but I try not to let it get the best of me.
Please do not ask me about my Parents; but if I have to say, my Korean Momma has Separated from my Korean Poppa!
So, since i am of age, I live alone in my rented apartment at Busan.

    This story is actually not about my parents, its about an accusation from the one I love.
Oh! Erase love.
it is loved (thinking out loud), I have decided to forget it no matter the hurt.

I met Hung nim in one of our Church Youth camp Meetings ( my church believes a youth is one between the age of 18 to 49 years of age.
Also, Our camp meetings are like social services to the Community. To this effect, we camp and work for 5days in any appointed Community. The Camping Entails teaching the locality Entrepreneurship, giving medical Aids and Evangelising.
    
       (Back to my story please...laughs).
  
     Sunbi Hung (as we all call him),  is a tall handsome young man, studying Medicine and Surgery in Ajou University, School of Medicine.  And I on the other hand, i'm studying to be an Attorney at New Castle University Malaysia. Still, we both belong to the Same Local Church in Busan S. Korea.

 
  At our first meeting, Sunbi Hung argued so hard with me that I hated everything about him.
As time went on, I forgot about him and the annoying argument, and moved on.
  
After 4months, the next Church Youth Camp meeting arrived.
   Something and or onething led to another, Sunbi hung and i got talking.
During these talks, I was so amazed and fascinated by how Brainny Sunbi Hung is. Also,  i love and appreciated His love to help people, his love For God and also His love for the Scriptures.
So, my Interest started building.
    
     After the Church Youth camp,
Sunbi Hung and i got so Close that we Kakao Chat almost everyday. And when one fails, such a one apologies to the other.

    The Church organised an End of the year party for the Youths( this is usually a yearly programme).
In the course of the party, intending Couples ( those intending to marry)  are always made to play a game, of which the winner gets a pair of Couples Laptop, and a big couples bed sheet is also given to all participants of the couples game.
   
     This year, i really wished to join the game. This is as couples carry out many exciting race and questioning games that  others are not opportuned to carry out. I just wanted to know how it feels to be On the game.
So in the Course of the Party, I asked Sunbi Hung to join the competition with me, promising him it would be fun.
   Sunbi Hung just told me blatantly that I was not his type, and that he has a fiancée.
I was shocked as I knew it was a lie, but I just played along by keeping quietly to myself.
After the party, I asked him to greet his fiancee for me, and he replied with excitement, that he would. And we all went to our various homes.
    Immediately I got to my house, I just opened the fridge, got my jar of Kimchi, and started munching it with anger( for me, kimchi reduces stress and anxiety when I eat it).
My mind kept repeating what he said, and I kept wondering why he would use that. Well, I told my self to forget him and move on.
   
   Weeks passed, and we still continued our chat, though not has friendly as before. I myself, I tried to refrain from being too attached in my conversations.

    Then it happened again the next month.
We all went for another Church Youth Camp Meeting (CYCM) to a suburb Specially built for the elderly.
This time around, So many new members of the Church joined us and I promised to make them feel welcomed and loved.
   I talked at length with our new church members during breaks, so as to know each other better, and I ate food with them and also hung around to explain important things to them.
In few of these times Sunbi Hung was around, I noticed an accusing glare coming to me from him.
  It felt like I was His, and was consciously making him angry by chatting and spending time with other guys.
Of course i pretended not to notice, I kind of cool off a bit, then went to him too, and had few chats.
    
     I never stopped going to oversee the other brothers.
And eventually, I noticed the same accusing look from Sunbi again.
So, I said to myself, "Eoni, you love loving people. This is whom you are, and never will it change for anybody".
     So, I continued, and eventually got pushed to the side by Sunbi Hung.
Sunbi hung started relating very well with every one but me.
His actions was uncalled for, since he has never asked me the unequivocal question, nor has he ever admitted to loving me, but I love him(though I also have never told him).
Yet still, Loving him is no excuse to forget myself and be whom I am not.
 
     I am a fighter, I have been through a lot and have overcomed. Though I would love a requited love, but certainly not at the expense of my love for others.
    I am more than willingly ready to get hurt seeing him chat away with others than me, Since it is for the right course.

  I felt like giving up on being strong and admitting to him that nothing was going on with me and those brothers, but my African father, always reminds me that " the true pride is one done for the love of others, and only a true love will value it".
   
   To Sunbi Hung, I am everyone's lover.

And i say, 'So be it, if he feels I am not worthy for him to fight for me(if ever I am as he imagined). He should even try to change me like Hosea the prophet did with his harlot wife ( though in this case, i and the brothers know that I am no harlot)'.

So I called him and explained. I told him that I am not everyone's lover, I am a lover of all!
He stood shamed and speechless. Yes! That's how I imagine it to be, when i eventually tell him, only if he loves me enough to ask the reason behind my actions.