The Secret Deep Hurt

It is so hard to watch you post happy things about yourself.
It is even more painful to know you could be this peaceful without me in your life.
The promise to be Sisters forever was now.
I never knew your forever promise was meant to be fulfilled spiritually and not from the Physical.

I have asked what happened to us?
but you said "nothing has changed".
But please! Everything has!
For Christ's sake, you cut the call just to put off  the light; or check with your eyes if the bus was there. Sadly, you've never called back.
Now I see you use the same terms you once use to use on me  with others.
I do not mind sharing, but it sure hurts to be erased.

When I post good stuff, I become your sister again.
Ni mean, I just mean a 'Sister' only on comments on posts.
You see me online and ignore to send a 'hi'
I have 'weaved' and 'hi'(ed) you , so much that I feel I have abused those options.

Everyone thought we were blood due to our closeness.
When you observed the Principles of Nwogugu, I became unfit.
Its funny how mum does not notice that we've drifted apart.
That even when I complain, I am told 'she is just busy'.

It is more painful during the month of my Birth and Yours.
Theses times, the only thing that occurs in my heart is...
Ethel, you are my sister and I Love you. No matter how people treat you, I will always Love you.

I miss you so much that it hurts.
I miss our jists, laughs, Singing the wrong lyrics of songs, encouragement, gossiping etc.
I miss being part of your life though you live on this Earth.

For this 5years,  my heart has not stop searching for unanswered questions. You will read this, like, probably comment 'Sister' and move on as usual.

I love you my Sister and I wish you every best peace joy and fulfilment.
But...
Can't a friend observe the principles of Nwogugu and still maintain a Healthy relationship with those who have not?